Freedom

I'm going to take a bunch of random thoughts and try to turn them into a blog. Bear with me!

I've been sitting at a desk for FAR too long this week. I'm loving the kids, parent's and co-workers at the new job. I am NOT loving being cooped up in an office all day. I've had a lot of freedom over the last six years. 7:30-4 Monday through Friday is taking some getting used to. AND I found out today that because I'm contracted for 9.5 months, I have to pay for my benefits for the months I'm not working. YUCK!!

The new schedule with Bella is interesting too. I dropped her off at preschool at 7:15 this morning and I won't see her again until 4ish on Monday afternoon. THAT is a LONG TIME!! I think she's having a hard time coping too. She cried for 30 minutes straight the other day. It was one of those things where she got upset that she didn't have a necklace and then she just couldn't stop the tears. We had a really good weekend together last weekend and I hope to continue just focusing on her when I have her.

It looks like I've found some help from my church to help me do the manual labor that needs to be done on the house. I've been there a bunch seperating things TRYING to get it ready to be put on the market. I SHOULD be there right now, but I decided tonight was for relaxing with a glass of wine and a movie. TOMORROW is for working! Everyone is telling me I won't be able to sell the house. Right now, I'd just be happy to have it up FOR SALE! When I moved out I tried to take only extra things. I thought I would be moving back. When the ex moved, he took all the big things we agreed on, and I got some of the things back. BUT now there is all of the little stuff to divide up. Dishes, towels, movies, books, sheets, pictures, paintings, decorations. It's A DISASTER! I've began making piles of things that I would like to keep, and I'm hoping he'll do the same, and then we can argue about all of the things we both want. To be honest, I'm to the point that I could call in the Junk-N-Dump guys. I want to make sure I have all of the things I inherited from my Grandmother, but I'm beginning to see the rest of everything as just stuff. Stuff that I just don't have the energy to deal with. I want it to be fair, but in the end does it matter?

On an end note...I I told ya'll in the last blog that I got a necklace that says "Be Free." Last night as I was reading from Psalms I found Psalms 118:5. It says...
In my anguish I cried to the Lord, and he answered by setting me free.
He did answer me. He set me free. Why be weighed down by "stuff?" I AM FREE!!! Thank you GOD....