Sometimes I have so many feelings, I think I might explode. That's why blogging and journaling have been my saving grace in the last year. I have so many things I've thought about blogging about tonight...Bella and Furball, my day with Bella and her questions about where babies come from, the Don Henley song about forgiveness that is stuck in my head...but no, not one of them is flowing tonight. WHY? Because someone has consistently interrupted my thoughts trying to pick a fight. Someone is mad because I wouldn't give him sympathy when he asked for it, and I won't apologize for not giving it.
I've learned so much in my group, readings, blogging and experiences with friends and family, but yet I still get to this point sometimes. Wrapped around this little world where I still answer the phone when I don't have to. When I let snyde comments out without realizing that I'm only adding fuel to the flames. They say no contact is the key. Oh, I can imagine that it is! But... there is a child, and no contact is not an option. Not answering the phone IS an option, but I'm still practicing and old habits die hard. Why would I want to answer the phone to someone who consistently tells me what a horrible person I am? I don't and I shouldn't.
Ok, I feel better now. No more phone answering, and only peaceful people in my life. Thanks guys.
BTW, Bella and I had a great day! We spent a while in the pool this morning, which just makes any day better.. She's such a FISH! But that is a blog for another day...
I've learned so much in my group, readings, blogging and experiences with friends and family, but yet I still get to this point sometimes. Wrapped around this little world where I still answer the phone when I don't have to. When I let snyde comments out without realizing that I'm only adding fuel to the flames. They say no contact is the key. Oh, I can imagine that it is! But... there is a child, and no contact is not an option. Not answering the phone IS an option, but I'm still practicing and old habits die hard. Why would I want to answer the phone to someone who consistently tells me what a horrible person I am? I don't and I shouldn't.
Ok, I feel better now. No more phone answering, and only peaceful people in my life. Thanks guys.
BTW, Bella and I had a great day! We spent a while in the pool this morning, which just makes any day better.. She's such a FISH! But that is a blog for another day...
3 comments:
hang in there!-April
"Old Habits Die Hard"...
It's hard to get out of that routine, especially when you have the hope, that maybe, JUST maybe, this one time you can have a decent conversation..maybe this ONE time, it could be only about my child.. It's hard to realize that someone you once loved so much could treat you with such animosity, and even after everything you've been through, still hold on to that hope, there is a decent person inside.
I'm sorry you have to continue to go through this, at least YOU are growing and changing, it's too bad the rest of them can't right? Keep being the strong woman you are, and you will prevail...
And I hope you're keeping documentation of occasions such as these...
I'm here if you need me girl!
Next time call me. Then it's easier to ignore the call waiting. I wonder if he will ever get the point and leave you alone? Probably not until he's found someone else to bug. Too bad that I wouldn't wish that on anyone...
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